just;

just when you said i’ll be gone
close my eyes, light of the dawn

in my dreams of escape
i see reality take place

questions never answered
moods never swung
the solutions in faces

pitiful faye, where have you gone
lip cream on my seatbelts

trapped in this fucking lion’s den
you must have seen this coming
the strings are playing
my harp my harp

ride the storm or risk being swallowed
the pot of gold at the end of this rainbow
forget about it
its all a fucking lie in the end.

patched

a thousand thousand

fighting the wars of fathers, wait
do you hear that sound?
remember this body holds me
i fight alone

love is the scars on your knees, no
the tumour of my sisters soul
im choosing to be here by you
hold hold hold me

choosing to be reversed
have you gone insane?
repeat the thousand thousand
the thousand the thousand

for life for life for life for life for life

yes, i forget.

last warning;

i saw his (my) throne, change from something glorious into something decrepit.

i saw him (myself) giving up, and letting go.
i saw him (myself) turn away.
i saw him (myself) working against everything.
i saw him (myself) sing a new somber tune.
i saw him (myself) sitting on that decrepit throne.

last night,
i dreamt i was satan.

i saw myself (him), afraid.

sunidog;

Generations past fallen, their presence exuberant
Promises unmade, torn down to their very core
Witness the ultimate demise
The victorious device

As we dance along sully lanes of milk and honey
Desire for fire, tragic denial
Trains of thought forever running
Voices of oppression each time ceasing

There are no chances here, NO
There are no chances here

In your freedom, in yours alone
Chains forged to be broken
Broken, yet not
I see the light, i turn away each time
Fight this battle of denial with me

You never will drag us down, NO
You never will

creator

how do you do?
your apathy kills me still
slowly, slowly
like a slow poison
infecting disease
never ending, ending

do you still see light?
your ignorance is my bliss
fields of evergreen
like a shallow paradise
much like the promises
made in the summer of inane proclamations

drop dead. dont speak.

do you feel me now?
as i am, sentinel, watcher
abandoned, forever vacillated
making noises much like that of a gripping silence
as voices whisper
creation unfolds

dont erase me just yet.
dont create me yet again.

sex bands;

standing on the brink of shattered equilibirum
the fist grips me in an ethereal fashion
much like disappointment and defeat

far too late, way too early

i find i find, oh i find
myself in the everlasting wasteland
i see i see, oh i see
myself in the waters of purgatory
i feel i feel, oh i feel
myself in your treacherous embrace
oh do i exist, only to end

bites of dogs, overshadowed caves
nothing but the end of eternal days
in this personal vigil
i pray to see
universes bloom only
to bounce and last forever
forever changing forever new

tarnished scars of a blackened heart

i said i’d hold your hand when you wake, only to watch you fall

sounds of people
sounds of demons
sounds of silence
sounds of you will never leave my cursed shattered mind

carnage!
tarnation!
blasphemy!
o help me chosen one,
as i emerge victorious against the scum

dementia!
smite me upon thy darkened horns
lust!
captured by meaningless spirits
consuming the baron i vow to thee,
i will erase your existence

hesitation leads to my demise,
possession my torture
stay thy hand above me,
for my wrecked decrepit form can handle no longer

love me, long for me, lust for me
but let me be
blackened hearts turned away from thy holiness
i will declare!
fawkes!
where art thou in my time of need

hidden meanings bear no grudge
but pulls at the heartstrings of the innocent
i long for you more than a newborn for his mothers breast
but i shall not partake in this weakness

with you, there is
no peace.
no sleep.
no dreams.
no future.
no existence.
no humanity.

it’s time i forgot about you.