the first.

so today was FUN two thousand and eight.

and even though it is so expected already i’m still going to say it.

it was FUN.

there i said it. i came clean, now i expect lots of comments saying i’m lame and that i should totally move my carcass out of ngee ann poly.

but honestly speaking, it was real good and wholesome (okay, maybe not so wholesome) FUN.

we cheered, we screamed, we danced, and we fought, but most importantly, we BONDED.

we may have not won anything, but you know this as well as i do, we won in heart.

we won because we’ve formed friendships and come this far.

we won because we weren’t afraid to come out of our shell and yell our lungs out.

we won because we didn’t give a shit about what the other faculties thought about us, we are the fms students, dammit, and we dont give a hoot if you hate us.

OKAY, bitchy statements aside, it’s time to input some thoughts into this ramble.

now, although it was fun and all, what i realized was that you can only have as much fun as you allow yourself to.

you can’t expect to go as a spectator, sit down, stone and keep mum, and expect to have as much fun if you were going completely insane shouting your head off and trying to get the whole crowd to do the dynamite cheer with you.

speaking of the dynamite cheer, we didn’t do it all today, it was pretty depressing.

as i was saying, how much fun you get is how much you want it.

take me for example, i wasn’t going to be all quiet and low profile in ngee ann poly fms, like i was in the good old secondary school days (trust me, low profile was a good thing then.) so i had the idea in my head, that i wasn’t going to keep myself in a shell here at ngee ann, but rather explode in a ball of furry fun.

what i learnt throught the orientations i went through is that you should always be yourself, and if people don’t like it, too bad for them. because i’ve realized that one of the worse things you can do to yourself is to compromise yourself for the sake of making people accept you, when they should be accepting you for who you are.

sadly to say (or type, for this matter), many people these days are like that. with the boundaries society has set around them, they bend in to conformity and lose their identity entirely. this is why we have large “social groupings”, such as bengs, muts, lians and the like. a bunch of people conforming to the same “ideals” that they become somewhat similar.

of course, this is all just an objective point of view.

you can’t really blame all these people, no matter how fun it is. i would never know why anyone would want to be what they’re not, but i can think of plenty reasons that would come close.

1. they just don’t have enough self-confidence. either their upbringing was filled with putdowns and discouragement, or they don’t get any encouragement from their parents at all.
2. they are pressured into doing it, like if they don’t, they aren’t considered cool.

of course, i have many reasons (not), but the root of the problem always comes back to confidence.

even at fun08, you can see those who are really confident of themselves, taking the risk of putting themselves in front of so many to just to make things enjoyable.

but, overconfidence is another issue entirely. perhaps i should talk about that another time.

this is larris, signing off.

p.s.: i seriously need a shower, and school starts at 8 tomorrow *groans*, but it is 4 hours of studio production!!!! i can’t wait, seriously.